Wednesday, November 30, 2011

First Post

Wow.  This is a little intimidating.  I feel like each of these posts need to be perfect since some folks may come across this blog one day.  But I hate to tell you, it's not going to be.  I'm a fat person.  I am tired of being fat.  Being thin - it is the one thing in my life I just can't seem to accomplish.  I have a wonderful family, an awesome job and good friends.  When I look in the mirror, I see shame and disgust.  So I don't look.  I choose to ignore it.

I will post a picture soon so you will understand what I am talking about.  Now don't think I have this bad body image thing going on in the old noggin upstairs.  I am a realist.  I know I am big.  It's gross.  I also know one day it will change because I am the only one who can make it happen.  I used to hope a lot.  Hope that I would lose the weight, hope that I would exercise, hope this and that.  I am done with hope, because hope is not a plan.